Updated: Jan 18, 2019
My husband and I often joke that I am an all or nothing person. When I'm in, I'm fully in whether or not its a good thing. Last week this became 100% clear. Over the Thanksgiving holiday I went all in on drinking alcohol, eating sugar, not meditating and staying up late. I consider this my nothing phase. When I am in the all phase I eat well, abstain from alcohol, meditate and sleep at least 8 hours a night (luckily this is most of the time for me).
Needless to say, the week after Thanksgiving was horrible. I felt completely off. I had a headache all week, I slept poorly, workouts were a struggle and it took forever for me to recover. I was in a funk and I knew it would just take getting back to my healthy habits and time for me to feel better.
All of this made me think. Why did I stray so far from norm? How can I better prepare for Christmas time? I would like to have a few drinks and treats but not overly indulge. I know that I have been great about this in the past, why was this year at Thanksgiving so different?
I think a lot of the issue was that I had been abstaining from all things "unhealthy" (we will discuss the unhealthy term in another blog post) for so long that I opened the flood gates.
Maybe if I allowed myself a bit more wiggle room in general I would be better about moderation. But then again maybe every once in a while we need a time that we completely go off the rails to remind ourselves how much better we feel when we are consistent.
I know how great I can feel and still it must be worth it for me to occasionally let that all go.
The most important thing that I can take away from this is to be gentle with myself and get back on track. I started to get really mad at myself but I never once doubted that I would get back on track. I have enough faith in myself to know that I will continue with makes me feel the best and that might include a couple of drinks each week if I want them. I can get so stuck in what is "good" and "bad" that I forget to live.
Don't get me wrong, I will continue to throw in an EmFit Challenge or a 30 day Paleo Reset ever once in a while just to make sure that I am still feeling my best but I need to remember that these are not a permanent way of life. Also, I longer suffer from the ailments that led me to become Paleo in the first place. If I ever started having symptoms of auto-immunity or anxiety again, I would definitely jump back on the strict Paleo bandwagon.
For now I am going to enjoy the holidays (not too much), send loving-kindness to myself and try be the happiest, best version of myself that I can be. I am going to work on a bit on not being all or nothing.